Being More Mindful and Pecan Paleonola (yum!)
Sorry I have been a little mia, I have just had a rough week. Which is not typical for me. I am usually super positive because I have a pretty awesome life.
I absolutely love my job, but because I love it so much I want to always be amazing, Which quite honestly it just not possible. There is not such thing as a perfect teacher, or person for that matter. Our best is really good enough. But sometimes it just doesn't feel that way. One of my classes is a major challenge, and they were rough this week. The things they do don't even make sense and it has been stressing me out. Majorly.
So I have been kind of running around in a stressed out fog. Shoving in my lunch in at my desk so I can get back to work. Coming home and snacking mindlessly to de-stress. Not really focusing on the rest of my life. And its not like I am eating chips and brownies. Its more like rx bars and seaweed, but still. Mindless eating is mindless eating no matter what you are eating. It is 100% possible to eat too much healthy food. Especially when you are not focusing on what you are eating. Just shoving food in. At home I have been eating while reading, or listening to a podcast, anything to not let my brain whir away. So I have basically been trying to shut my inner voice up. Which has left me feeling like total shit. Stressed and hating myself. Not the best combo.
I purchased and read Robyn Youkilis's new book Thin from within, and what it really focuses on mindfully eating and listening to your body. The exact opposite from what I have been doing.
I am trying to just breathe before eating to get my system into a rest and digest state, and then I am eating with no distractions. Aka just me and the food so I can actually focus on what I am eating and how I am feeling. I am also chewing my food. Like really chewing it. I haven't finished a plate of food once, just goes to show that I have clearly been over eating and not paying attention to my food or how my body feels. Which is a little sad. I have also not snacked. So I clearly have some work to do. There are three months of school left and there is no way I want to live those three months in a stress induced fog. Just eating my way through. That does not sound good. Sounds like I will end up miserable. Which is 100% not what I want, I am so lucky to have everything I have and I want to remember that.
I know I work hard and I know I am stressed because I want to be the best teacher possible. But I also need to remind myself that its not personal and that I just have really challenging special education students. Which is all part of the deal. I just need to breathe through class and know that my best is enough, and really celebrate the good days.
I basically spent this whole long weekend cleaning, de-cluttering and organizing the house, which will also hopefully help remove some of that stress, because it will be easier to keep my house in tip top shape. I strongly feel like decluttering my home will help declutter my brain. On top of that I breakfast prepped for the week. Sometimes I feel far to lazy to make breakfast in the morning and end up eating the most random shit. Now I have perfect meals ready to go. What I prepped are power parfaits from Robyn's book. They are actually the best. I know its not a standard eggs and veggies paleo breakfast, but this is what's working for me at the moment. To go with my power parfaits I wanted to make my own paloenola that was super low sugar but also delicious.
- 1.5 cup pecans
- 1/4 cup flax seeds
- 1/4 cup hemp seeds
- 2 tblsp chia seeds
- 2 cups unsweetened shredded coconut
- 1/4 cup coconut flour
- 1/2 cup sliced tiger nuts or almonds
- 1/2 tsp cinnamon
- sprinkle of salt
- 1/2 cup melted coconut oil
- 1/8 cup maple syrup
- Preheat the oven to 250 degrees
- Put the pecans and flax in a food processor or vitamix and blend until ground, but not a flour consistency (stop before than) - it should be crumbly like oatmeal
- Pour this into a bowl and add the rest of the dry ingredients, mix until well combine
- Slowly pour the melted coconut oil over the mix
- Mix thoroughly and then add the maple syrup and mix again
- The whole mix should be slightly wet
- Spread out on a baking sheet covered in parchment paper
- Bake at 250 for 30 - 35 mins, stir and rotate the baking sheet every 10 mins
- Leave out for 30 mins to an hour to dry and cool
- Store in mason jars or some other air tight containers
Enjoy!! Makes a great topping for a smoothie bowl, or power parfait. Or honestly just a little snack.